Ever feel like a grasshoper?

"We seemed like grasshoppers in our own eyes, and we looked the same to them." Numbers 13:33b

I fight with the grasshopper mid set ALOT. Much more than I would ever like to admit to anyone. I'm a pessimist at heart and I can find something wrong with any plan. When someone shares an idea with me, a dream or a passion, my first reaction is rarely one of excitement and encouragement. Usually The first thoughts in my head are, "Wow, I doubt that's ever going to work." What's the root cause of this constant battle? Why am I not the first to embolden and inspire my family and friends instead of being so tempted to dampen their spirits? Why when God asks me to obey him do I feel the need to mention how tall the obstacles are, how small my resources feel, and how slim the chance of success seems before I disobey?

I LACK FAITH!

There I said it. I didn't open my bible looking for this this morning. I totally didn't expect to be convicted about anything while I trudged through Numbers. It was waiting for me though, a mirror reflecting my disobedience and lack of faith. God's grace revealed to my heart in Numbers 13:33. The spies gave no credence to what God thought of them, how others looked at them. Their lack of faith had turned them into nothing in their own eyes, into grasshoppers. Any task was impossible because of their weakness and failures, and it most certainly was if their strength was all they had to depend on.

Today I wont see opportunities as roads to disappointment because I can do all things through Christ (Phil. 4:13). I wont submit my mind to evil thoughts because through Jesus I can bring every thought into captivity (2 Cor. 10:5). I wont be condemned by yesterdays failures because I am forgiven (Col. 1:13-14), saved by grace through faith (Eph. 2:8), and justified through Christ (Rom. 5:1). I wont disobey because of my lack of faith. I am taking my eyes off of Will and I am placing them firmly on my Father. My opinion of myself matters little because I am a child of God (Rom. 8:16). He has blessed me with every spiritual blessing (Eph. 1:3) and has made me strong in the power of His might (Eph. 6:10). I live today walking by faith and not by sight (2 Cor. 5:7) because I am a follower of Jesus (Eph. 5:1) and he has called me to be the light of the world (Matt. 5:14). Today I am refusing to live as a grasshopper because I am a child of the King.